slow down

I think that what's happening is that I'm slowing down. For a while I was just absorbing too much, too fast, deconstructing faster than I could digest. I think that I have some ideas about God and the universe and I'm just letting them affect me as I live my life.... does that make sense? Having grown up in the works based atmosphere that I did, it's hard for me to accept "being" as an appropriate activity, or "experiencing" as an equivalent to working things through and sorting things out. But if you think about it, what better way is there to learn about such things than by simply living and observing that life?

One thing that I've really come to see the value in is placing myself in a mindset that seeks to find a lesson in every experience. I've always found myself doing this to a certain degree but I think that in the next little while I'd like to make a conscious effort to see the less obvious lessons, to let them sink in, to pay attention to the little details. Life is incredibly detailed, and yet I remember precious little of it. This seems a tragedy.

Puja is at the vet tonight, having a little sleepover after her "fixing." The house seems so quiet. Abu is bored. I can't wait to pick her up, first thing in the morning. the poor baby. The next two weeks may be hairy..... besides attempting to keep calm an unexercised puppy with stitches, I will be doing some work on a friends house while doing an uncharacteristic amount of socializing. Hopefully next weekend I can get in some serious Final Fantasy hours.

The sooner I go to sleep, the sooner I can go get my baby. and with that I retire.